My hometown is El Paso, TX and it holds a dear place in my heart, it is were i began my new life in recovery. I was given the opportunity to work for a non profit organization that assisted in introducing me to the recovery community. I have currently been clean from all mood altering substances since October 2, 2005. This journey has afforded me great opportunities to travel and share that experience, strength and hope with others.
Recently in 2010 I decided to make a move east to Austin and have been enjoying getting to meet new people and having new experiences.
I am an uncle to 3 children who live in Japan with my beautiful sister and brother in law. I adore those kiddos and cant wait for them to come back to the States.
I have been surviving HIV since July of 2003 and am educating men and women, as best I can, to the many opportunities and avenues for LIVING a life filled with hope.
I am optimistic, and at times temperamental and I am passionate about my life today. My personal mission statement is: To internationally inspire positive thinking and forward movement through M.E.E - Motivation Education & Empowerment.
I do this by speaking at public engagements and different levels of multimedia platforms.
I keep forgetting i have this account. I should blog more often, shouldn’t I.
So it’s been quite sometime since i have used this thing and figured I could do homework, or I could piddle around. So I chose to piddle. A quick update, really quick.
Wow, to see it in bullet point form, it’s not that bad. Of course there is back story to it all. Where should I begin. Stay tuned.
2011 is just around the corner and I keep reflecting on what has happened since i have been in recovery. I don’t know how i made it through all the chaos of my active addiction. Was it some divine plan for me to be right here at this moment pecking at the keyboard in my office in a new city with a new look on life and awesome opportunities on the horizon? I think so. I know for a fact it was not my plan. My plans were to become a drug dealer or a bartender or working a simplistic, low effort life consisting of fast food, paying rent and barely surviving from pay check to paycheck. I ask myself why i had wanted those things in the past.
I have been taught these days to not ask why, but to ask HOW. How do i continue to work towards any goals i have begun to set in my life. “How” is and can be a very empowering question. In it’s own right it speaks to submission, surrender and a level of acceptance.
Submitting - voluntarily yielding to the will of another. To whom? Simply to another. Another person that has the experience in an area that I have none. To someone in a position of power and responsibility that I may not have or want. I have found that if I voluntarily submit to the will of another, to trying to do things approach circumstances in a way that is different from mine that I may just save myself from self imposed grief and undue pain.
Surrender - the relinquishment of one’s own will. Like i have mentioned, my will can be self centered, self seeking, selfish and self serving. I can be the first to admit that i do tend to think of myself first. How will this effect me? When is it my turn? Which piece is mine? What do I get? Even hammering those out makes me feel as if i can be a self centered ass. But if I were to let go of that will, that drive to be selfish than what can i accomplish? How many people would benefit from me letting go of my will? How better would society be if we were to let go of our selfish will?
Acceptance - agreement to experience a situation, to follow a process or condition (often a negative or uncomfortable situation) without attempting to change it, protest, or exit. Accepting where i am in my life can be difficult at times. I feel that most may understand acceptance to be something that warrants sitting back and doing nothing. I know that with any level of acceptance, with any situation we must follow through with what will get us through the situation or condition. Simply putting one foot in front of the other and doing the next right thing for the right reason. I understand where I am in life be it situation or condition and i move forward. Asking for guidance and support along the way.
Most of what I have accomplished in recovery in the past five years I have not done alone. I have had many ideas or dreams of where i want to go in my life, but in know I must enlist the assistance of others and follow their direction in some instances blindly hoping that the outcome is such that is the best for everyone not just myself.
So far so good I must say.
I was just asked by my Sprint representative if I participated in Mardi Gras. After saying “No" he asked "Don’t the Gay People participate in Mardi Gras."
Prior to that statement, he kept trying to sell me an extra phone line for my Parents, Wife, for my Girlfriend… After telling him that i didn’t have a girlfriend he told me i should get one. I told him I was Gay, hoping that the sales pitch would cease. It didn’t.
It frustrates me to automatically be assumed that I am straight. (Of course my Best Friends would add a comment or witty quip here. God Love them.)
What has been your experience? What can I do, if anything, to raise the awareness that automatically assuming that an individual is what society has deemed to be a norm can and does contribute to the internalized oppression that still exists within the GLBT community?
-Joseph D. Sanchez
In ancient times, a King had a boulder placed on a roadway. Then he hid himself and watched to see if anyone would remove the huge rock. Some of the king’s wealthiest merchants and courtiers came by and simply walked around it. Many loudly blamed the King for not keeping the roads clear, but none did anything about getting the stone out of the way.
Then a peasant came along carrying a load of vegetables. Upon approaching the boulder, the peasant laid down his burden and tried to move the stone to the side of the road. After much pushing and straining, he finally succeeded. After the peasant picked up his load of vegetables, he noticed a purse lying in the road where the boulder had been. The purse contained many gold coins and a note from the King indicating that the gold was for the person who removed the boulder from the roadway. The peasant learned what many of us never understand - “Every obstacle presents an opportunity to improve our condition.”
I read this this morning and was reminded that there is a lesson in everything and everything is a lesson. Namaste
I am a person that loves to have music for every occasion. Whether it be driving to work, or just sitting behind the desk hammering out a new document; i just got to have the beats. The rhythm, the words, the flow - it is all just fluid.
Here are some sites, other than Pandora, that have turned me on to new artists and just rock. Oh and they are free.
We are Hunted - http://wearehunted.com
Stereo mood - http://www.stereomood.com
Sound Cloud - http://soundcloud.com
Check them out, let me know what you think. Are there any others out there that you recommend or like to use?
On my way to work every morning i see fabulous cloud and sunbeam combos paint the sky. It truly is an excellent way to start the day. Gently placing me in right direction and helping me to become humble and grateful. Embracing me and enveloping me in everything that is good and positive on this earth. So i have incorprated embracing this feeling and state of being as part of my morning ritual.
It’s a sight to see. So as i begin my trek to work with all these emotions filling my being - i through all caution to the wind, screw the relaxed and tranquil feeling out the window, drive with my knees and do my absolute best to contort in a way that i can take a picture with my phone. Of course i try to watch the road in front of me with my peripheral. My heart beats faster. Watching for any signs of flashing lights behind me, red lights in front of me. I touch the capture button.
This time i play with the camera settings. Again.
I have so many photos of the sky. I absolutely love the way the clouds constantly change formation and fluidly move through the air as if dancing and performing a ballet in the sky.
I try my best to take evening photos of the moon but alas that requires something better than a camera on my phone. A future investment - you bet.